“Hello loves
I’ve started house hunting and I’m guessing every single one of you knows what this feels like. I’ve had two years to forget the pain of birthing a new home and as the sort of person who sinks deep roots into her nest the uprooting is such a shock to the system. The house hunt is fast becoming a test of my nerve — can I hold out until I find exactly what I want or will I go with the place I think I “should” take? The one that’s almost everything I want but I’m having to compromise on something. I’ve turned down two places already that could’ve worked but weren’t everything I wanted. I know I’ve been spoiled in my current home — it’s small and dark but full of so much character it’ll definitely be a hard act to follow.
I also know this chaos will continue for a while so I’m doing my best to just surf the waves as they toss me up into the air. After the first day of viewing I gratefully returned to some sleepy cat cuddles and that deep exhale when you’re finally home… followed by the ache of knowing that this home will soon be no longer. It’s all so bittersweet! I know I carry my real home inside me, and that wherever Cat and I end up will become a safe haven for us both, but the transitioning is hard. I can absolutely see some of the positive I hope will flow my way — more space, more light, a garden, a possible “studio” space for my biz. That last one feels exciting as I’ve worked in my living room for over a decade. I don’t really need a separate space for work — all I need is my laptop and a chair — but I’m digging the symbolism. With more space to expand I wonder what else can I create in a space dedicated to my ideas?
So there’s good stuff coming, I do trust that… I’m just keen to be on the other side of the liminal space, settled into my home with a place for every spoon and a happy cat enjoying the luxury of her own garden (which she’ll no doubt exit as soon as she can to go exploring!) I left home aged 17 and have never lived longer than three years at any address since then. This house I’m seeking may not be the one that breaks that pattern but I hope it’s the one before the one…”
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